A Kid at Christmas

So I am now at the point in our pregnancy that I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas. I am anticipating this wonderful thing and it just can't seem to get here fast enough. I think waiting for Christmas can be a little easier though. At least there is a set date on the calendar with Christmas. You know exactly when it is going to happen. As a kid, you know that as soon as you wake up (no matter the time) on December 25th, you will get to experience all of the greatness the day has to offer.
In some cases, if you have scheduled a cesarean or are going to be induced, you get that scheduled date to plan on. If you are like me though, you just know it is sometime in the next few weeks. Could be today, tomorrow or three weeks from now. That is torture!!! So if you are like me, you turn to books, websites, etc. looking for signs that it may be soon. Well, let me save you some time by saying that is about as helpful as having a blind navigator on an airplane.
Whether you are looking up signs you are pregnant or signs you are in labor (or anything in between), it is all very general and very confusing. For instance, in one book, if you look up the ninth month of pregnancy it gives many different things you may be feeling, such as; extra fatigue or extra energy, increased appetite or loss of appetite, constipation or diarrhea. I'm so glad they have narrowed down the symptoms of the ninth month for us there. The list is much larger but those few are my favorites. When you get to the actual labor and delivery sections of these books they aren't much more helpful either. The signs of labor are just as vague.
So here I sit, wondering if the pain/pressure I feel is that of a normal ninth month of pregnancy or that of the first signs of labor. Every time I get a little cramp I get excited thinking this is it. Get the stopwatch. Here she comes. The last few nights I have felt "weird," something in my body feels different, so I think, 'Tonight is the night. We had better get showers, etc. out of the way and be ready.' Only to find we get through another night with no trips to the hospital. I need to be patient but anyone who knows me knows that is about impossible.
I don't think it would be so bad if our last few doctor appointments hadn't been so up in the air. I guess that sort of makes me feel up in the air. We were scheduled to see my midwife Wednesday, Feb. 22. They called that morning and said someone had gone into labor and asked if we could reschedule.  What choice did I have. That same appointment was rescheduled FOUR times and after all of that I finally just had to see a different midwife rather than my own. That midwife said she would be surprised if we went longer than a week. She said the baby is so low that she couldn't even feel my cervix.
Well, there are still a few days left in the one week time frame she gave but I am feeling like it isn't going to happen. She did say it could be longer but said a few times she would be surprised if it was. It has now been one month since I saw my midwife and we should have been on weekly visits as of Feb. 22 (3 weeks ago). So as you can see, things have been a bit up in the air. I am feeling more anxiety just from all of the rescheduling alone, not to mention from the labor wait. I hope Grace will get here safely but I really hope it is soon. I am a grown up, I shouldn't have to feel like a kid at Christmas. In pregnancy, you are considered full term at 37 weeks (we are at 37 weeks and 3 days... not that I am counting) so I say, "Christmas is over, the decorations are put away, it is now time to bring on the baby."